Monday, November 30, 2009

Micro-Fantasy Monday: Etiquette

She had him bound and gagged, naked and helpless on the bed. "Rules slave, I have simple rules and etiquette for you, and you just don't seem to get it" She paced along the side of the bed as she spoke to him in her stern voice, gently slapping her riding crop in her hand as she did. She raised the crop high in the air and slammed it down on his ass as hard as she could - the sound of the impact matched in volume by the loud groan he made behind the ball gag.

"You will speak to me with respect at all times"

She struck him again

"You will always listen and pay attention to every word I say"

She struck him again

"You will always be humble"

She struck him again

"You will always, ALWAYS, do what I say"

She struck him again, and again, and again ...

Sunday, November 29, 2009

Last nights adventure

i'm gonna start by saying that i had a great time last night! Now let me tell you why. First of all yesterday was the first day of having my CB2000 on, which had me feeling great, i had seriously forgotten how good it felt to be kept so secure. But that on its own isn't why i'm smiling so much though.

When Mistress decided to take me to be last night, it started with "go to the bedroom and get naked" so i knew we were going to be doing something. Once there Mistress took out some of our rope and began by tying my hands behind my back. Next my ankles were bound together, and then She tied the ropes around my wrists and ankles together, leaving me hog tied on the bed. After that she blindfolded me and left me on the bed for a short time while she went and got ready for bed.

At this point i was starting to lose a little circulation in one of my wrists, which sucked because i was enjoying the feeling of being bound. Seriously, i could have just laid there for hours pulling helplessly against the ropes. After i told Mistress about my wrist she untied by hands, leaving my feet bound and began using the rope to whip me across my ass, back and thighs. She didn't go on for too long, but just enough for it to start to string. When She was done she untied m ankles and ordered me to go down on Her, which i loved being able to do, at this point i craved it more than anything. i buried my face between her thighs and gently licked Her through to an orgasm, after which i just kept my head resting gently on her thigh where i could still smell Her juices. Afterwards we cuddled together and had a talk about what happened and from the sounds of it we both enjoyed it a lot.

After talking about it though we did come up with a couple of things for me to do. The first of which is i need to find a way for us to store our toys better so Mistress can get to them easier when She wants to use me. The second is that i need to find some rope bondage tutorials for Mistress to read so that She can tie me up in positions that i can keep longer without losing circulation (so if anyone knows of any let me know!). i also told Mistress that She can practice on me as often as She likes (yea i enjoy being tied up way too much i think!)

i really enjoyed our little play session last night, even though i didn't come out of my cage at any point, and being able to talk to Mistress afterwards and knowing that She really enjoyed it was fantastic. Hopefully there will be heaps more of this to come in future (and hopefully with photos, but we'll see how we go!)

Saturday, November 28, 2009

Some of my goals for my slavery

Bonus points to ThePinkPoppet for the idea of this post - i was had to urge to write something but wasn't sure of what and she suggest that i talk about some of the goals i have as a slave, so here goes!

i don't think i have ever sat down and tried to plab out my goals as a slave in writing, i know i have some ideas in my head and some i have talked with Mistress about but never really put them all down in the same list. It also makes me wonder what goals Mistress has for herself as well as for me too, i should go and talk to her about this. But that’s not the point of this post so i'll move on.

I think the biggest goal i have for being a slave to Mistress is that Mistress enjoys having me as her slave. I know thats a pretty generic thing to say but it’s at the top of my list. Because at the end of the day if She decided to tie me up, whip me until i was red and bruising all over and then fuck my ass raw but wasn't really enjoying doing it, then it’s just not the same for me. If i know she isn't getting a kick out of having me as her slave then i don't enjoy being her slave - i think because i get too disappointed that i hadn't done something right, or that perhaps i had forced the role of Mistress on her when she might not want it or whatever, but it’s that which makes Her happiness the number one goal for me.

Taking that first generic goal i can expand on that in my head a lot more to say "well how can i make her happy?" and the list there goes a fair way. First there are things i can do to care for Her and make Her feel like a queen, so things like always giving her massages (and maybe pedicures/manicures - assuming i could learn to give them), keeping the house clean and tidy, doing things for Her while She relaxes with a book, and so on. Then there are plenty of other things i can do to make her happy sexually as well, with going down on her being at the top of that list (for me anyway! hehe). So looking at this list of things as a goal for me, my first goal is to get better at always making Her happy by improving in all of these areas. i know i can't change everything overnight, so these are things i want to keep working at.

Then there are goals that i have for myself. When i think of the goals that are specifically for me i came to one conclusion - i am a seriously wanna be dirty slave! I want to be able to learn how to take big plugs and dildos in my ass (the bigger the better, i think im an ass whore wanna be here, i cant do anything past what i would call medium right now, but with practice ill get better). i want to be able to deep throat a strap on worn by Mistress, i want to push my pain threshold as far as i can, which will mean reaching it and breaking it multiple times. i want to have reminders of my submission that i can always have with me, like my cock cage - getting both of my nipples pierced is on that list. i would really like to be 'feminised' somewhat as well - i'm not saying i'm ready to go out in public and try to pass as a woman or go and get a sex change or anything (i love my penis too much for that!) but the thought of being made into a slutty woman drive me wild - i could do a whole post on just this subject alone, in fact i think i might so i won’t go on about that more here. i could go on for ages thinking of other things i want to be able to do well as a sex slave, but those are the main ones i think of first.

There is one other thing that comes to mind when i think of goals, and that is for Mistress to want to give me a collar. i know that this is kind of a big deal to most people in D/s relationships, and i would like it to mean a lot to both of us. If we could get a collar that i could wear while i was in public so i wouldn't ever need to take it off then i could continually wear it as a sign of not only my submission, but my sheer devotion to Her. So if we do get to the point where i get a collar my goal there is for it to be that everlasting sign of our relationship.

So that’s about it for goals i can think of right now, im sure i'll be able to better define these as m relationship with Mistress matures and we both grow into the roles a bit more, but that’s about the gist of it. Feel free to share goals you have in the comments, i would love to hear about it!

Friday, November 27, 2009

Preparing to begin my chastity again

One of the things that Mistress and i both think is important to making sure i am a good slave is chastity. From what i've read on the topic most keepers of male slaves agree that his orgasms need to be controlled and that a male slave shouldn't be able to masturbate freely. There are a couple of thoughts on how this should be achieved, with one being that a slave should just be trusted to not touch himself and only make himself cum when he is ordered to, and his devotion to his owner should be enough to make sure he keeps to that rule. The second option is to get a chastity device for him and make sure that he can't touch himself to make himself cum.

Personally i'm on the chastity device side of things and so it Mistress - she enjoys knowing that i'm all locked up and secure so i'll be ready whenever she wants me. Given that she knows that sometimes i have a habbit of masturbating in the shower the device is a way of being able to know that i'm only being allowed release when she wants me to.

i actually found myself thinking about this yesterday, as to how i could explain in a blog post exactly why i enjoy being in forced chastity so much - and it's really hard to describe the feeling. For me i think its a couple of things - the first being that it is a constant reminder of my submission (and i love the things that i can use to remind me, either under my day to day clothing or stuff that is discreet enough to be seen) and the second being that it is a way of removing control of at least that one part of my body from me. i think the second is the more important as it helps reinforce my submission rather than just remind me of it. Without the device on everytime i start thinking about something kinky my cock can get hard and i can touch it and just feel quite sexually empowered - where as when the device is on it prevents me from getting hard at all (and if i am wearing the small set of spikes that came with it, every attempted erection causes me some mild pain as well). The result of this is that when i become aroused isntead of being able to feel like i need to go get laid (or do it myself) i find myself thinking "ok, what can i do for Mistress to get her to let me out and at least give me a chance at cumming, but at least be able to feel my cock get hard for a short while" so it is a completely different mind set for me.

So after going through the recent troubled patch with Mistress i have gotten used to not having the cage around m cock, but today i'm changing that. This morning when i was in the shower i shaved my cock and balls in preparation for wearing it again, and by the end of the day i will be under lock and key again. i'll see if we can take some pics of it to share here as well.

Thursday, November 26, 2009

A fresh start

So here i am, first post on a new blog, a completely fresh start. i did have another blog where i talked about my experiences as a slave to my Mistress, but during a bit of a (very) rough patch we went though I made the decision to get rid of it, and my twitter account and everything to do with my online 'kinky' self, because i wasn't sure if we would continue as Mistress and slave.

Anyways, Mistress and i sat down and talked about it, and i think know we both learned a bit from what happened, and we both want to keep trying to get this thing to work, which i personally am very happy about. So here is a new blog and everything for me to signify that fresh start online as well. I changed my name from "Tightly Bound" to "slave b" for this one - using a single letter seemed to be a reasonably common thing to do for a name online, and i have my reasons for choosing 'b' (its not as obvious as something like my name, but it does make a nice play on words for the URL of this blog - 'b the slave', like 'be the slave' ... get it? i had a giggle about it when i realised!)

So now we are both trying to settle back into doing things as Mistress and slave - i need to shave my cock and balls again and get back into my snug little CB2000 chastity cage again, which with any luck i will do tonight or tomorrow, and Mistress wants me to start my anal training again (which i'll document again here as it was laid out on my old blog). So wish both me and Mistress luck as we continue on this journey (if you can call it that) and thanks for stopping by to read about it - leave me comments or email me if you like (the address is on the side of the page there).